Gabriela HorrSep 15, 20222 min readDear AlbaAlba, I feel a little silly writing to you because I don’t see this as a means to feel closer to you on your first Heaven day. I ask...
Gabriela HorrSep 6, 20227 min read8.26.22 - 9.6.228.28.22 It’s been months of me postponing the journey to begin healing my body physically. To either update or catch you up, I am STILL...
Gabriela HorrAug 26, 202215 min read6.28.22 - 8.26.226.28.22 We have a weird week. A good week. A really social week. We have 2 double dates planned and then a worship night out with...
Gabriela HorrJun 27, 20226 min read6.19.22 - 6.24.226.19.22 Today is father’s day. While today was good, really good and relaxed, Kyle still struggled with the same acknowledgement that I...
Gabriela HorrJun 17, 20228 min read5.26.2022 - 6.17.20225.26.22 My life is a wild ride. I run into some amazing people now and I am so blessed by them. But I also run into some weirdos ha. Kyle...
Gabriela HorrMay 25, 202211 min read4.21.22 - 5.18.224.21.22 Last night our therapist really blew my mind with one simple question in response to my explanation that I feel torn by having...
Gabriela HorrApr 20, 20227 min read4.13.22 - 4.20.224.13.22 April 27th of last year I said a really scary prayer. A prayer that I knew would require a lot of me. A lot of growing, learning,...
Gabriela HorrApr 12, 202210 min read3.19.22 - 4.12.223.19.2022 I am happy today. These days I feel joyful and ready to tackle the day. I’m happy to clean the house, do some laundry, keep up...
Gabriela HorrMar 17, 20223 min readHSG Test3.17.2022 This is a trauma response. I’m ok. I’m ok. This is just trauma being triggered. I don’t think I’m ok. Today I’m getting my HSG...
Gabriela HorrMar 16, 20227 min read3.11.2022 - 3.16.20223.11.22 I've noticed that I haven't been taking very good care of myself recently. I can't pinpoint when it started but gradually I began...
Gabriela HorrMar 8, 20227 min read3.7.2022 - 3.8.20223.7.2022 I stood with one foot out in the aisle and one foot planted back by the safety of my seat. “I will never force you to follow...
Gabriela HorrFeb 19, 20224 min read2.18.2022 - 2.19.20222.18.2022 Kyle and I have been together for 11 years. Woah. At 29 years old, going on 30 that’s really cool to think about. In this hurt...
Gabriela HorrFeb 16, 20228 min read2.8.2022 - 2.16.20222.8.2022 I STILL sit here in awe that I am able to have such a beautiful baby boy sleep on my chest tonight while also grieving the loss...
Gabriela HorrFeb 6, 202214 min readZion Trip2.6.22 This morning I looked out at the vastness of canyon that our God created. “What do you want me to know in my sadness right now...
Gabriela HorrFeb 6, 20226 min read1.24.22 - 2.2.221.24.2022 We have had Xavier for one whole month. Our days in his NICU seem like forever ago already…which is weird because our time with...
Gabriela HorrJan 27, 20227 min read1.4.2022 - 1.20.20221.4.21 Today was an emotional day. Ugh. I began my day deprived of sleep from the 4am and 7am feed and actually got myself ready which...
Gabriela HorrJan 23, 20222 min read12.22.2021 - The Good News. Please Read.1.22.2022 What if my happiness is an insult to Alba’s memory? What if there is zero honor for Alba’s life by my being happy for Zay’s? In...
Gabriela HorrJan 21, 20225 min readFinding out about a baby(these random entries are over the course of 1 month back in Nov 21’-Dec 21’) Last week it was confirmed to me by my caseworker that Cami...
Gabriela HorrJan 6, 20228 min readThe Initial Days of GriefKyle and I left the hospital and headed directly to the hotel I had booked for us to begin the initial steps of dumping our grief. I...
Gabriela HorrJan 1, 20223 min readFirst post of 2022. 1.1.221.1.22 The ADD in me has me extra motivated, inspired, hopeful, and ecstatic for the new year. I angst to begin new bible studies, start...