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A SEASON OF CRUSHING
We all go through seasons of blessings, joy, loss and grief. Here is my season of loss and grief in real time. It won’t be a fun read. But it’s my experience none the less.
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Ernest Hemingway
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Last post of 2021.
12.23.2021 I have PTSD. I knew this when I got a simple cold from my kids a couple weeks ago and was hit with emotions of grief like in...
Gabriela Horr
Dec 31, 20217 min read
12.16.21 - 12.21.21
12.16.21 I catch myself being caught up in the excitement, the thrill of a new journey, a new chapter….a new baby. Everything and...
Gabriela Horr
Dec 21, 20215 min read
12.8.2021 - 12.13.2021
12.8.21 My day was an unexpected rollercoaster. I only just sat down to get my nails done when I received a phone call from my foster...
Gabriela Horr
Dec 13, 20213 min read
My Birth Story
This is going to take me a long time to get out. I’ve been dragging my feet on starting this journey of sharing my birth story. Birth...
Gabriela Horr
Dec 7, 202129 min read
11.24.2021 - 12.5.2021
11.24.2021 Yesterday was Danielle’s birthday and while the date was remembered, of course, I was unphased. Not in an insensitive way but...
Gabriela Horr
Dec 7, 20217 min read
11.11.21 - 11.19.21
11.11.21 ——- 11.16.21 I haven’t been writing much as you can see above. I dated it, but left my iPad for days because I didn’t want to...
Gabriela Horr
Nov 19, 20215 min read
11.5.21 - 11.10.21
11.5.21 I’m not sure what it is that’s making me inconsolable tonight. Outside of the obvious, it seems that at least once a week that I...
Gabriela Horr
Nov 10, 20217 min read
10.28.21 - 11.1.21
10.28.21 Am I too dependent on this blog as a means to cope that I’m sitting here in a restaurant typing my feelings while Kyle uses the...
Gabriela Horr
Nov 1, 20214 min read
10.27.21
10.27.21 My first days of grief are briefly written out in my notes app. As I was suffocating in my heartache in our hotel room, it felt...
Gabriela Horr
Oct 28, 20214 min read
10.26.21
10.26.21 I have a lot to get out today so bare with me. I’m currently in our dining room converted to a playroom that I absolutely...
Gabriela Horr
Oct 26, 20215 min read
10.19.21 - 10.24.21
10.19.21 I have yet to really dive into my first 2 weeks of grief here. It was such a painful (emotionally AND physically) experience...
Gabriela Horr
Oct 25, 20214 min read
10.15.21-10.18.21
10.15.21 Grief thoughts: I see other moms talk about loving their bodies because they birthed a human and they are so strong. I feel...
Gabriela Horr
Oct 18, 20216 min read
10.12.21 - 10.14.21
10.12.2021 Thought of the day: Do the feelings of grief plateau at a certain point? When do you reach such a point that you literally...
Gabriela Horr
Oct 14, 20216 min read
10.6.21-10.11.21
10.6.2021 I’ve had a welcoming relief of peace this morning. These moments are hard to explain because I still know the pain is there but...
Gabriela Horr
Oct 11, 20214 min read
10.5.2021
It took me a minute to realize I was already crying when I woke up this morning. Sleep is hard for me but when it finally comes it is...
Gabriela Horr
Oct 5, 20214 min read
10.4.21
Today is an hour by hour kind of day. I just focus on what is directly in front of me at the moment whether that be preparing a snack for...
Gabriela Horr
Oct 4, 20213 min read
A Season of Crushing
10.4.21 I wish I could better articulate my feelings onto paper in a way that really pulled the audience into my world. In a way that...
Gabriela Horr
Oct 4, 20212 min read
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